I'm actually anxious about going

I know of the time we're bound to gather in Car Park C of Bukit Jalil Stadium - I know I'll have to get up early and leave early, but I seriously don't know what's gonna happen thereafter.


When will they leave ? Will I meet people who are going to the same Sungai Rait training camp ? Will I find good company, amongst a multitude of trainees ? Will I survive ? Will I be accepted by the peers I make ? Will I last under the sweltering June/July/August heat during physical training ? Will we be guided by a team of good mentors over there ? Is it going to be better than the NS experiences of some people, as most people claim ?


All the things I need to take along with me have already been set aside (except for a bundle of T-shirts - that, I'll soon have to set aside, after my final paper on the 10th). I've begun stylising my National Service notebooks - one journal and one other book to take to class.


I feel anxious, because I don't know how to celebrate Father's Day, Fête de la Musique, Bastille Day and Merdeka Day over there. I don't know what to do in memory of my beloved mom - I've gotta do more than just say a special prayer for her. And I hope and pray that nothing untoward happens over there in Sungai Rait.

I'm really anxious : dear Lord, please help me. I can't go on feeling like this.



P.S. The NS journal will appear on Jeunesse before it appears on this blog, as I shall be writing in French (firstly, so that people won't understand ; secondly, to still have the flow of the language). Translation should take between a few days to about a month, depending on how long my posts are.